todays forecast....

i went to weather.com
as i usually do
when planning my daily attire
comfort is the ultimate goal

sinec my day will be spent at school
fullerton is the city i type in
and what does it say...

currently 63.
sunny. high 66.
abundant sunshine.

yes, abundant sunshine.
since when was that a weather forecast
and how badly to people
being rained on
snowed in
and chilling
dislike us.

i even looked up abundant in the dictionary.
a·bun·dant /əˈbʌndənt/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[uh-buhn-duhnt] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–adjective 1. present in great quantity; more than adequate; oversufficient: an abundant supply of water.
2. well supplied; abounding: a river abundant in salmon.
3. richly supplied: an abundant land.


now i just wonder
is there truly ever
oversufficient sunshine?
more than adequate?
seriously???

who decided that there was
such a thing
as
abundant sunshine
wow.

and its a beautiful 63.
so that means
its crisp
breezy
and there is just way too much sunshine.
NO WAY!!!

sounds like a beautiful
cali day!!!!

mouth

by merril bainbridge

I feel like I've been blown apart
There are pieces here
I don't know where they go
I don't know where they go

Kiss me on my salty lips
I bet you feel a little crazy
But for me
We'll be famous on TV

Chorus
Would it be my fault if I could turn you on?
Would I be so bad if I could turn you on?
When I kiss your mouth, I wanna taste it
Turn you upside down, don't wanna waste it

I jump on you, you jump on me
You push me out and
Even though you know I love you
I'd be inclined to slap you in the mouth

When I kiss your salty lips
You will feel a little crazy
But for me
I'll be famous on TV

Chorus x2

Now, will it be my fault if I
Take your love and throw it wide
You might restrain me
But could you really blame me

And you will feel you're blown apart
All the pieces there
Will fit to make you whole
And I know where they go

Chorus

When I kiss your mouth, I wanna taste it
Turn you upside down, don't wanna waste it
x2

there is no right way to smile

easter. i dont celebrate it
only thing i knew of easter as a kid
was the amazing candy. and chocolate.
i must say my chocolate love affair
has lasted almost all my life
true love

so
on this day that i dont celebrate
yet the one i love does
i am subject to in laws.
yay in laws.
not quite.

you gotta love them
their passion
commitment
the blood
that runs through her.
through them.
a petition against gay marriage
h to the e to LL NO YOU DIDNT!
wow. that moment. the feeling.
indescribable.
brian kinney (QAF) said
there are two kinds of straight people
those who hate you to your face
and those who hate you to your back

i much prefer those
who hate to my face
at least they are real
not full of $h17.

all the while
drugs
neglect
naivity
innocence
glowing in the air
7
being told
smile, but keep your mouth shut
(who calls that a smile??)
the pain
inside
too young
to bare
a product
of an enviroment
oh so full of grace.

crossroads
that i am at
my train has gotten into mischief
topham hat will not be pleased
he will scold us
and be annoyed.
toot toot...
off we go.

here, there, everywhere
that is how my life flows
fluidly
constantly
non stop
all the worlds
living as one
inside
my mind

Thank You G-d for You Have Blessed Me
shema israel adonai elukaynu adonai echad
we are all one
seperate
is not
equal
unity
passion
love
peace.

no doubt

dont speak.

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

this song
was an 'anthem' to me
in the way
that a select few
have been.
to name some others
heal the world
what if god was one of us
angels would fall
breakdown
smoke two joints
lets go get stoned
i will always love you
and im sure there are more

so when i hear these songs
so much emotion
feelings arise
and moments remembered
some of them
so sad then
i look at so fondly
the breaking moments
of when i was hurt the most
and shattered
crushed
and how i can look back at them
and smile
chuckle at myself
and how i responded
my rebellion
my action.

if you ask
yes
i think i am so cool
but only because
i was such a nerd
and yet
my big heart
has kept me strong
and loving
and peaceful
and everything else
that makes me
who i am
(yes, the yelling too)

flashbacks
gotta love my anthems

what they didnt tell us...

when they told us the story of adam and eve.

they forgot to mention
that with the apple
and all the things
and horrible things
it brought with it
labor
work
agony
marriage
no one mentioned
that it also meant manogomy.

wonder if the snake woulda told eve that
if eve woulda taken the bite
im sure adam woulda run the other way at such mention.

oh well.

ill be sure my kids
hear the story
with extra details
even if
the details
are just
my own.
i happen to think
it makes sense.
thats all that matters
in my world
if you dont like it
have scotty beam you up
later gator.

dreams...feeling...real

dreams are so fascinating.
some people remember them
some claim not to dream
but how do you remember
what goes on
when your body rests
and your mind controls?

i realize that some people, their mind truly can rest
when they sleep, its silence, calm, peaceful
when i sleep, it is vivid, real, clear
the first few hours, usually pass quickly
my slumber
but i then i begin the dreams
in my dreams
i feel
i feel some emotions
i never have felt anywhere else
but in my dreams
fear, love, pain, pleasure
so intense
heart pounding
adrenaline rushing
dreams

i feel more in my dreams
than sometimes i feel in days

as a child
day dreaming
that is where i lived
as i grew up
the day dreams
there were no time
dealing with life
love
faith
day dreams put on hold
while i took care of
my physical
my body
my heart

and my mind
more than ever
craving those moments
where i can lay
and be still
or drive
and disappear
and return to the dreams
and feel
hope, truth, disappointment, anger

dreams are what remind me
to take every minute
and appreciate it
because there are many things
that could happen
that could change
and feelings
that i am yet to feel
await
because
there is plenty of moments left
to my existence
and my presence

i want to feel
i need to feel
i need to become
whatever it takes
to feel
how my mind
and body
crave for me
to feel.

happy anniv to us

march 4
forever
a date ill remember
our anniv
not the wedding
but of togetherness

eight years
yes
EIGHT!

its amazing to be with someone
who grows with you
challenges you
depends on you
strengthens you
and understands you.

to some
they pass through many to find
some of that
sometimes
all of it
and my first shot
my awakening
brought me into the life
of my
most magnificant
beloved.

its not always peachy
life never is
but even when the grapes go sour
our love shines through
we continue to grow
individually
and together
as our paths
merge
our own little
freeway
parallel
together
no detours
where you go
i shall go
forever.

its not going to be easy
you know im a little crazy
its ok
i love all the voices in your head too
we fit
perfectly
imperfectly
balanced.

i love you
forever

B"H

a quick thought...

as i read the briefs for the In Re Marriage cases to be argued tomorrow.
March 4
my anniv. ironic, eh?
maybe good luck will stem from it.

anyways
my thought

the best thing
that hiliary clinton can do
if she becomes president
is get rid
of her foolish hubbys
DOMA law
defense of marriage act
pathetic
i dont need her to promise
because a politicians promise
is worth less than
the unclaimed penny laying on the street

i am proud of CA
because RDP = spouse
= equal benefits as far as CA is concerned
so however tomorrow turns out
i still know
at least in CA
i am protected
and truly
a state
citizen
equally