games

i have been thinking
about bloggin
this title
for days now
i even started the blog
this am
but then, decided
nevermind

well, ive redecided
and i definitly
do
mind.

i begin
with a concession
that i
as a human
am sure
that i myself
engage
in many
games.

but
i feel
im usually
on the defense
thrown into a game
and everybody's game
is so different
some use die
some colored pawns
either way
im not always sure
of the rules
the goal
and why exactly
we are even
playing
games.

i want honesty
i want to talk
i want to be understood
im sick of
being
misinterpreted
attacked
and misread.

the problem is
these games
are all around me
so i must wonder
is my subconscious
truly
the master mind
behind
all the games
and therefore
i myself
am really
the aggressor??

possibly.
but not
intentionally.

"i believe in love
please send me love
and i will try again..."

sorry, broke out into song.

but its true
i believe in love
i believe in peace
i believe in solutions
i dont like
to be mad
to be sad
to be hurt

i dont want to play
these mind games
crazy trips
of emotion
i would rather
a game
where everyone is aware
we are playing
involved
and cooperating
and then
we can enjoy
each other
our life
and
the game.

i just want peace
i want love
i want to share it
and enjoy it
with those
i love

i want to be
understood
and loved
is that so much
to ask for
in this game
of life?