anonymity

i cant even spell it.

sometimes, you just want to speak, with only the thoughts and ideas in your mind, but you dont want people to gather a misconception, or maybe even a perception of who they think i am. why am i so afraid to let someone classify me in their own way? after all, by classifying and grouping, that is how people stay comfortable. maybe i dont like comfort, i know ive been testing the limits since before i knew that there were any.

weddings. now theres an experience. its amazing what one night of chaos can change in u. everything is the same and at the same time, everything is different. then theres the honeymoon. a time when you are supposed to bond and become one... you know a wedding is way overdue when that is accomplished and done and overdone. but bonding is never done, it continues every day and every moment. two souls become one, yet it takes eternity for them to consist of only 1.

so much is happening in the world right now. i dont expose myself much, or hardly at all, which may not be the best thing. i just can handle it though. watching as the media continues to run this land. The smarter man develops, the more brainwashed society becomes. watching this destruction, the loss of faith and a higher sense of trust, i cant handle not changing it. so i have accepted that there is a major responsibility that needs to be taken by someone, and i am prepared to sacrifice and do what is necsesary so that i can do my part. when in your spare time your mind wanders to ways to fix the government, the schools, the world we are putting our chilren in... you know that your higher purpose awaits. so many ideas flooding your mind, the different ways each of us makes our difference. catch the thought that makes you happiest, and follow it. the only rule is do what makes you happy, and harm no one in the process.

i was taught very young that my duty is to live my life doing good and walking the word of the Higher Power...and now the time has come for me to fulfill my duty, and to create the path that will bring the best of what i have been blessed with.

this is the time to step up, stop the excuses, and just DO. wish me luck. this is now the next chapter.